"Confessions"

Its been really hard to admit but I still have those 'feelings' for you. I tried over and over to get rid of it but I just can't. I used to think that its a crush but how long can a crush be? Since the day I told you that I want you the feeling never back down. I tried to suppress it but never succeeded. We've been friends for 10 years and for all those 10 years I have been holding on to it. Every time you're in a relationship I have always been there standing at the sides wondering when it could be me that's with you. Every time I confess I only pushed you away and that really hurts me. I always take the risk and I always fail. I try to go away but I just couldn't. I think I will hold on to this feeling and hope that you will realize that the feelings I have never faded but the day you announce your marriage and I know its not me will be the day I will let it go...Probably...